Dear Ron,

You've been okay lately. We talked, some of what you said hurt me a lot more then you know. I won't go back to Jade and now you see why, I am sorry that you lost a part of your family, see that I am struggling to, I lost a part of my heart everytime she betrayed me. But I am getting better. I know I have trust issues, and its because through my entire life I always lose the people I love. I lost my dad, I lost my grandpa, I've lost best friends, I lost an uncle, I lost a older brother to me, I lost lovers, I lost myself for a long time. Depression eats me alive, I think you finally realize why. I think you see why I need to be someone. Ive been hit, kicked, slapped, beat up, bloodied, threatened, put down, spit on, hurt, emotionally and physically, but it has made me who I am. I will always get back up. Everything you have done has made me independent, and strong. I fend for myself, even if it wasn't your intentions it is what has become. You didn't know what I did to survive when you lost your job, you were depressed and we didn't have money to eat. Now you know I am no so great of a person. And you accept me a little more. I want you to know, your alright. Really.

Sincerely,

Your son

Dear World,

I am asshole, I know I make mistakes, but I am trying to learn from them and get better at everything I do. I know I am not a perfect person. Neither are any of you, so you don't have the right to judge anyone else, and I don't either. Some times I say things about an ex, and I bite my tongue, just because I am mad doesn't give me the right to de grade you. I won't anymore. Even if you keep up your wicked ways I will smile and move on, smiling and keeping my head up. World, I will be better, I promise.

Sincerely,

Just Another Person

Dear Life,

I am going to be happy. I am going to live my life! I am going to live it up, and be a teenager, or give it my best try! I own my own life! My destiny is not set in stone and i can relax and live a little bit. I want to have fun, I want to laugh. I want to smile everyday. I wish I was happy like everyone else. I will be happy like everyone else.

Sincerely,

Yours Truely

Dear Jade,

Fuck you for bringing out my insecurities about everything. "Your dad walked out for the same reason i cheated. We didnt want you. No one does" Well fuck you. Stay away from me.

Sincerely,

The bridge you burned

Dear Money,

I know you make the world go around and all, but can you make it slow down a little bit? Im getting to old, far to fast. Chasing after you I've grown tired and sore, but also wise and calculating, so you would think you could do this one thing for me. I've caught plenty of you, but I still dont have enough to make ends meet, so could you please stop trying so hard to out run me, and let me get a chance to catch my breathe? 'Cause im going to run until I die if things keep going like this.

Sincerely,

Danny Carlson

Dear Pretty Lady,

I love how you spend time with me. I love how you make me feel like a person again. I love the way you talk to me. I love the way you are there for me when things get hard. I love how you are an amazing person. I love the way you look at me.

Sincerely,

Your secret admirer

Dear Jade,

A life is not a joke. You are a liar, a user, a vampire, trying to suck the life right out of me. I cannot believe the things you put me through. You think a life is joke? My life isnt a joke, your trying to ruin it, and me. I tried to make us work, while the entire time you tried harder to push me away. Now that I left you it is the other way around. A battle of wills. You say your pregnant, ha, who is the dad? Your not pregnant, and the life your talking about when you try to force responsibilities on me is a joke to you. I never want to see you again. Ever. I thought we could be friends, but faking a pregnancy is to much. I made you take two tests, guess what they said, not pregnant. If you were two weeks late they would say positive. Your a user. Your a player. I'm an asshole, but your a bitch.

Sincerely,

Your Worn Out Boy Toy

Dear Mrs. Hoehner,

Fuck You.

Sincerely,

Danny Shay Carlson

Dear Friend,

Thank you so much. Thank you for laughing at my stupid jokes. Thank you for caring. I think your an amazing person. What you said means the world.

Sincerely,

Your Best Friend

Dear Self,

Why do you keep trying? Why dont you go home and pull that fucking trigger? Why do care what you become? Why do you want to be someone? Why is your life falling apart at the seams? Because your real dad doesnt even like you? Who cares, thats the least of your problems, no one fucking loves you. Soon your own friends will shun you. Your money is why people hang out with you. Your a boring, rich asshole. So whats stopping you? It wouldnt hurt to die, a click of that trigger and then silence. And the pain disappears. So go do it, if you can muster the courage. Why didnt you do this a long time ago? Because you havent acheived what you want? So what happens when you finally get the job? What about when you buy that car? Your still a fucking no body. Your a sixteen year old, still young and dumb. So why are you so boring, you try so hard to be interesting. But people just want what you have, and you know it. Quit trying,

Sincerely,

Your real fucking thoughts

Dear Mom,

I know you tried so hard to make time, I see that you care about me. Sometimes its the thought of how much you love me, and how proud of me you are that keeps me going. Remember when we were so poor that we had food stamps, and instead of buying those apples, you bought me all those pop rocks? I remember. I remember when we hid under the kitchen table and pretended that we were playing hide and seek when the sherriff came to kick us out of the house. Remember when you used your scholarship money so we could go on a vacation? I do. I hope I made you proud. I think your a wonderful mother, and after everything you have went through to where you are today, I am so incredibly proud of you. Your a big shot. You work for huge companies. You never stop impressing me.

Sincerly,

Danny Shay Carlson

Dear Dad,

Lately I dont know who I am. I wish i knew my real dad. I think I would understand who I came from. Or at the very least have someone that would understand me. My stupid step father who I am forced to call dad doesn't even care. I left my girlfriend, she cheated on me, we dated for almost four years coming up here in December. He told me that I am an idiot. I don't know what im doing. Well dad, your suppossed to support me in what makes me happy. You dont, just because she was good looking you take her fucking side! You can't see past her low cut shirts and pretty smile. No matter what you did, i always tried to help... And now you talk to me like I am some sort off failure. Well, you dont fucking know me. You sit at home and watch your TV while i run my business, that you said would fail, you sit there while I go to work you fucking pig. You never cared. I break my arm you laugh. Im starving you say get another job. So I did. I got another job. I have four jobs now, and now im not starving. You tell me to shut up and do the house work, you know what, I make the same amount of money as you, so what are you going to hold against me this time? Yeah, look at me now, i make 36,000$ a year and im going places while you watch cops. I drive a 10,000$ sport car at 16, while you wish you were me. I know everyone, i know police, federal agents, military, judges, lawyer, governors, while your a pathetic, egotistical salesman. So yeah, you can yell, while I buy my clothes, my food, my shoes, pay my insurance, my hospital bills, my haircuts, my lunch money, my school supplies, but know that a real dad wouldve helped. He wouldve cared. You never took the time away from your damn shows. So its okay, dad, I am going places. I am going to be happy, without you.

Sincerely,

Your loving son