You've been okay lately. We talked, some of what you said hurt me a lot more then you know. I won't go back to Jade and now you see why, I am sorry that you lost a part of your family, see that I am struggling to, I lost a part of my heart everytime she betrayed me. But I am getting better. I know I have trust issues, and its because through my entire life I always lose the people I love. I lost my dad, I lost my grandpa, I've lost best friends, I lost an uncle, I lost a older brother to me, I lost lovers, I lost myself for a long time. Depression eats me alive, I think you finally realize why. I think you see why I need to be someone. Ive been hit, kicked, slapped, beat up, bloodied, threatened, put down, spit on, hurt, emotionally and physically, but it has made me who I am. I will always get back up. Everything you have done has made me independent, and strong. I fend for myself, even if it wasn't your intentions it is what has become. You didn't know what I did to survive when you lost your job, you were depressed and we didn't have money to eat. Now you know I am no so great of a person. And you accept me a little more. I want you to know, your alright. Really.
Sincerely,
Your son
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